Sunday, December 30, 2012


i'm the chronically late one.

Hi! I know I’m five days late, but I might as well do CHRISTMAS while it’s still December. Before I get to what really matters, I might as well talk about the changes you may or may not have noticed around this here blog.

I have a new URL! What do you think? ‘Star Me Kitten’ is a song by REM. I don’t particularly like the song (although I do like most of REM’s body of work), but my cat’s name is Star/Starla and she’s kitten-sized and I like the way it sounds. If you have an issue with the URL or like the other one better, you may not be the only one and I may be turning off millions of readers a day (this is EXTREMELY unlikely), so you might as well say so in the comments section.

I also played around with the theme a little. What do you think? Did you like the other better? Again, please tell me in the comments.


Let us get down to business: CHRISTMAS PRESENTS. 

I got a new camera, the Panasonic Lumix dndk12434numbersandlettersthatIreallydon'tcareabout. It's not as ~mainstream~ as the Nikon D3100 or Canon EOS Rebel t(something)i, but so far, I like it. I will take a moment to spam you with a very fancy-looking photo of my kitty.

My objective of making this post was more to practice using my camera, then to be like 'HA! LOOK AT ALL OF MY STUFF! YOUR LIFE SUCKS!' (bee tee dubs)

ALRIGHT! SO! From +Kate, I got a HOLE necklace that I like so much I'm afraid to take off: 

I also got really cute bookmarks that Starla is posing with here:

From Ruby, I got a nice cardigan that I'm so prettily modelling for you guise in this picture:

and some Mac nail polish (that got all screwy because I got blue paint all over my hands shortly after painting them)

From my dad's friends, I got the All About Me book (the teenage edition) and a copy of Nirvana's Live at Reading on DVD (not pictured.) I especially like Live at Reading because of this.

I also got a copy of Dispatch From the Future by Leigh Stein from my parents, as well as a new notebook.

 Next we have a Molskine planner-thing that I'm really excited to use in 2013. I've been writing a lot of bad poetry (no seriously: 'a sad cloud/ a grey cloud/ cries/ do you want a hug?/ sorry, but you are just a cloud') and a poem-a-day-thing would be fun to laugh at in the years to come.

 I also got a nice Matte lipstick that's a brown-ish color.

And a cool rainbow drippy candle.

I also got a pair of purple pants, a purple skirt (not pictured), and three pairs of tights (not pictured.) (two of which are purple.) This boy at my school went up to me a few months ago and was like, 'I'M GOING TO CALL YOU PURPLE.' I guess this only proves his point.

Lastly, I got the new iPod touch! It is actually, literally my life. (and a little too wide for this blog)

YAYYYY! I hope everyone had a happy and healthy holiday break!

Saturday, December 22, 2012


Hello, kitties! Long time no see (ish) (not really) (you can see all of my pictures here and I've sort of been commenting) (so yeah) (not really)

I will just start of by making the observation that OMGWERENOTDED

Okay--now we should get down to business. I was nominated to the Liebster/Versilility blogging award by this super awesome person whose blog you should go and stalk right now. YAYAYAYAY! I'm chronically lazy, so I'm just going to do the Liebster stuff because it's all eleven-y and stuff and I have an extensive vocabulary and stuff.


  • Each person must post 11 things about themselves
  • Answer the questions that the nominator set for you plus create 11 questions for the people you’ve nominated to answer
  • Choose 11 people and link them in your post
  • Go to their page and tell them (NO! TOO MUCH WORK!)
  • No tag backs

  1. Courtney Love is my everything. (This is an understatement.)
  2. I really have to pee, but don't have the energy to get up.
  3. I have a cat named Starla and I'm crazily obsessed with her,
  4. I live (sort of) in the East Village of New York City.
  5. My favorite ice cream flavor is taro or honeydew or black sesame or key lime pie or anything with cinnamon.
  6. I cannot go for twenty four hours without consuming ginger candy/prunes/instant oatmeal.
  7. Food.
  8. I really like candles.
  9. I watch so much Bones that I look at everything in life from a hyper-rational standpoint.
  10. I'm such an English teacher's pet it's not even funny.
  11. Oliver Tate proposed to me. (This may or may not be true.)


      1) How do you procrastinate?
Well, Tumblr. I also waste time reading blogs/blogging and looking at clothes that I'm too lazy to buy online. Youtube is also a great time waster because British eye candy and all of the Hole demos/concerts/interviews/everything. When I'm not in front of the computer, I resort to eating copious amounts of cereal and lighting scented candles (which occasionally results in my bed catching fire.) 

      2) What trend do you despise/just don't get?

      3) What's a habit/belief/superstition from your childhood that you just can't give up?
I'm still afraid of ghosts. Walking around in the dark is literally petrifying for me.

      4) Your favourite candle scent?
I'm currently burning a vanilla-pumpkin candle that I very much enjoy. I'm going ULTIMATE CANDLE SHOPPING tomorrow, so I might feel differently.
current wiener

      5) Name one place that is sentimental to you.
Nothing that compelling has ever happened to me, so nowhere is really overly special. That being said, I sometimes get monstrous bursts of nostalgia when I'm on the lower school (well, elementary or primary--my school is like, the only school in the universe that says 'lower school') floor of my school because I've been there since kindergarten.


      6) What's your getting-ready-in-the-morning routine?
I first wake up to turn off my clock radio at 6:50AM. Then, I wake up again around 7:15 and take a shower. After that, I change back into my pajamas and eat breakfast (usually instant oatmeal and Greek yogurt and one fish oil capsule ) (that's a lie--I usually forget the fish oil). Next, I make my lunch. Finally, I brush my teeth, get dressed, and run to catch the bus or to school.

      7) What are you studying at the moment?

  • First period: Geometry
  • Second Period: Music class (I play bass in band) / Gym (or, as we're supposed to call it, 'PHYSICAL EDUCATION')
  • Third Period: Physics
  • Fourth Period: Lab / More Physics / Health / Art
  • Fifth Period: Spanish
  • Sixth Period: Lunch
  • Seventh Period: US History
  • Eighth Period: English

      8) What do you want to study/do in the future?
I think it would be fun to be a Courtney Love-type figure or a writer. Realistically speaking, I'll probably just work at a law firm or something like that.

      9) What was the last thing you ate, when, where, who with?
I had a strawberry Greek yogurt about half an hour ago in my bedroom, alone.

      10) A song that describes you perfectly/very very well?


      11) Which actor or actress would you like to play you in the movie of your life?
Probably Kristen Stewart. I know this is probably going to destroy my indie cred because everyone hates Twilight and we don't look anything alike, but I think she was really good in Adventureland, Speak, and the Runaways. Sorry I couldn't rattle off a list of people you've never heard of or something.

1. What is your favorite school subject?
2. If you could trade places with anyone, who would it be?
3. What would be your last meal?
4. Honeycrisp or Pink Lady or neither? (Marc Maron and I are both honeycrisp people.) 

5. What is your favorite movie?
6. What chewing gum flavor would you be?
7. Who is a movie character that you'd really really really want to date?
8. If you could go to any concert ever (musician can be dead or alive), who would you see?
9. What TV show can you be caught sobbing to/laughing at at three in the morning?
10. If you could live anywhere in the world, were would it be? 
11. What is your favorite season?


Tuesday, December 11, 2012


It's getting cold(er.)  Lyf is getting colder. 

Do you ever try to fix problems that need fixing, and, although you've (sort of) stopped relying on that semi-destructive thing you were doing, you live life in flat slow motion where everything is sludgy and uncomfortable?  It's all kind of sore/achy in a really acutely passive-aggressive way and you just wish you could snort glitter or something to send everything into a rush of sped-up nebulae and warm feelings and light and fluffy melted sugar?

~twinkle noises~

There comes a time in every genuinely bitter girl's life where she just notices the scowls/disregard on other peoples' faces when she is present. She politely asks someone to spit out their gum and the gum chewer is like, 'huh' and lemon girl is like 'uh uh i can't really concentrate i mean um i'm sorry and stuff i mean you can keep chewing if you want but like uh.' She just realizes that...things aren't OPEN. 

There are people who stand in closed circles, talking, laughing, and brushing their arms up against one another. Yucky-Splenda-after-taste is sitting, cross-legged, staring into space and playing with her shoelaces. 

Many more people would like tonic water if it wasn't for the quinine. 

THAT IS THE END OF VAGUE AND 'HYPOTHETICAL' RAMBLING (or just yearning for other peoples' empathy)


I saw the movie, Submarine for the 1.63th time (approximately) and I think it's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time.

It made me laugh extremely hard sometimes, but also made me sort of sad. I thought the art direction was painfully good, the casting was perfect (I loved Oliver's dad! He was amazing in Flirting--and of course Oliver was just...[insert abnormal breathing sound here]...) This movie hit every note I could ever ask for anything to hit. (uh lol wut) It's what I expected (but failed to get) from The Perks

The painful awkwardness and wince-inducing screwing-up was so honest and everyone was just really cute in an unconventional way. It was like hot chocolate, a warm throat hug, but also a sticky, sickly sweet mess.



On Black Friday, I met up with my frand Chin from this mystical magical place of amazingness. Here's a video I put together of our day.

i would strongly suggest watching this in HD
also, the other two people in the video are kate and kofi
also, christmas
also, bye.

Saturday, December 1, 2012


in case you forgot what i looked like
ps: happy december!
Hello! During Hurricane Sandy, I didn't really have much to do besides eat cereal and read, so I reverted to my favorite homebody activity: DANCING ALONE IN MY BEDROOM.

This is actually an activity I spend a lot of my time doing, and I probably enjoy a lot more than I should. 

Like, maybe it's not just hurricanes that confine me to this shabby little quarter that I can't even call my own (housing costs in Manhattan + cheap parents = sharing a room with ten year old brother = retarded mouth noises all night = PURE MISERY AIDED BY SLEEP DEPRIVATION), but the paralyzing fear of the outside world and dealing with things besides Tumblr/Bones/black tea with cinnamon and vanilla in it and a LEMUR on the box. (Example: Cold weather. Another example: Bumping into people on the street and having them literally wish you were dead. Another another example: The sheer amount of effort it takes to get dressed.) 

School is a chore, but not necessarily a bad one. It's like how homework isn't physically painful or anything once you get past procrastination  (something that I'm obviously not capable of, given that I'm here now and not doing homework.) However, the amazing thing about school is that YOU CAN'T PROCRASTINATE AT SCHOOL. I made this realization not too long ago, and it is like, amazing. Plus, there are maybe one and a half cute boys at school (hey, I'm a teenage girl and this blog is about honesty) my eyes lick their lips for.

worst metaphor ever
but best gif ever
I realized that there are other really great things at school, even when you don't have the comfort of your best friends at your side. I mean, the other day we had a fire drill during jazz band (which my TWO friends aren't a part of right now--I think I have more, but my cynicism has made me oblivious to all things good and is begging for a pity party) and I was like 'ugh im a luzr' 'ugh i hav no frends' 'ugh lyf sux', BUT THEN, TWO PEOPLE APPROACHED ME. AND LIKE, THEY WERE BOTH TALKING TO ME AT THE SAME TIME AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHO TO LOOK AT AND THAT IS ALWAYS A GREAT THING. And then person one said to person two, 'Why do you wear lipstick? It looks unnatural.' and I said, 'Why are you wearing clothes? It's unnatural.' and then we launched into a heated debate about nakedness, picking flowers, cutting your hair and definitions that I can only drool and guffaw about.

Not all people are bad people if you can't borrow tampons from them and express your hate for virtually everyone and everything with them.

(cue for Charlie to exclaim, 'Whoa! No kidding! which was by the way, also not a part of the extremely watered down movie version--scowl.)

I mean, I like to savor conversation and avoid people as soon as I make any sort of connection with them because I don't want to run out of ink or say something to shatter our union of positive acknowledgement. I want to hold on tight to it like a piece of candy that is so special you want to save it for a special occasion, but end up never eating it. That's not really a positive thing because the yearning of eating the candy is not nearly as satisfying as enjoying the candy, even if you add the guilt that comes along with it being gone afterwards.

So yeah, dancing with myself is still my preferred method of passing time.